What's Going On???

I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON.... FIRST OF ALL, MY LOVE LIFE IS A DANG! THAN SECOND WORKING LIFE IS REALLY HARD... BUT YET I'M NOT HAPPY ANYMORE WITH THIS WORKING PLACE... AND I'M PLANNING TO CHANGE JOB.. I'M REALLY WONDERING WHY THINGS HAPPEN SUCH A BAD TIME THIS YEAR.

NEXT GORDON, MY "BOYFRIEND" SAID HE WAS DEAD.. (SORRY GUYS I HAVE TO BRING IN TO MY BLOG SO THAT I AM GONNA REMEMBER) AND BACK TO ALIVE.. OK I'M ANGRY *ARGH!!!!!* WITH HIM AND HIS FIANCE WHO HAPPEN TO BE MY FRIEND, WHEN I FOUND OUT THE TRUTH ON HIS "DEATH" HE USE TO CALL ME EVERYDAY TO APOLOGIZE ON THAT SO CALLED "DRAMA"... NOW LATELY I HEARD FROM MY FRIENDS, HE WANTS ME BACK.. I'M ALREADY FEELING SO HURT, DEEP IN SIDE SO HURT *SOB**SOB*....BUT I STILL DO LOVE HIM. *SIGH* BUT HE IS GETTING MARRIED!!!!

ANYWAYZ... LATELY MY FRIENDS HAS BEEN TELLING ME THAT ALL THESE SET UP IS NOT HIS WORK... IS HIS FIANCE, AND ALSO I HEARD THAT HE IS NOT MUSLIM AND HIS FIANCE BEING RUDE TO HIS FAMILY AND BACK STABBING MY FRIENDS AND SAYING THAT THEY HATE ME... TO BE TRUE I'M SHOCKED TO HEAR THIS.. FIRST OF ALL HIS FIANCE I KNOW IS A VERY SOFT SPOKEN.. BUT NOW I'M NOT SO SURE... I'M SHOCKED! NOW.. I HAVE TO SAY I CAN'T BELIEVE BOTH OF THEM NOW.. *SIGH* MOST OF MY FRIEND ASK ME THIS..."WILL YOU GO BACK TO GORDON, IF THIS THING REALLY HAPPEN, MEANING HE BREAK OFF THE ENGAGEMENT AND GO BACK TO YOU?" I WAS LIKE I DON'T KNOW AND I DON'T THINK SO, FIRST OF ALL, MY HEART, TRUST TO HIM HAS BROKEN INTO PIECES...

*SIGH* I REALLY DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS TRUE, ALL I CAN DO NOW IS FOLLOW MY HEART... THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY

INTREAT ME NOT TO LEAVE THEE, OR TO RETURN FROM FOLLOWING AFTER THEE: FOR WHITHER THOU GOEST, I WILL GO; AND WHERE THOU LODGEST, I WILL LODGE: THY PEOPLE SHALL BE MY PEOPLE, AND THY GOD MY GOD - THE BIBLE